Nothing is forever & forever is a lie

Out with the old & in with the new

2008-06-25T17:09:00.001+01:00

Shifted to Sweetcavities :]
See you there.

It's not suppose to hurt this way

2008-06-09T19:17:00.003+01:00

I'm growing, so fast I don't even feel it. I'm experiencing things I never thought will ever happen, fast and hard. And for the side record, it's affecting me quite a lot as much as I don't show it (okay maybe I do but not it isn't blatantly obvious I guess). Everytime I think of how cruel life is my heart cries out pixie dust. It hurts seeing the people around you getting their hearts torn apart because of what may seem like the silliest reasons and yet all I can do is listen and stop myself from doing anything cause I've done the stupidest things - things which I can't forgive myself for doing. Today made me realise that no matter how thin we slice it, theres always two sides to everything and when there are people fighting to stay neutral, some recklessly take the extremes. I've come to realise that no man dares or want to stand alone in this world and how horrible the feeling of being judge from others ungodly bigoted point of views feels like. So I honestly wish that all these pretencious veneers will soon shed off and true feelings can blossom. And even if the truth hurts, it'll only sting for awhile. The hardest bit is to learn to forgive and we should all do cause its the best feeling ever, its the feeling we put on parade.

Anyhow.. ffffffffffreak. I've lost something yesterday and I dont even know if its worth losing ): AH DAMNIT. I need to talk to Lou&manda. I miss my girlfriends ): Met Yingqi yes-yesterday and it totally made my day :DDDDDDDDD I can't wait for this week to go soon. WO YAO HUI JIA LA.

Leave the pieces when you go

2008-06-01T12:51:00.001+01:00

And it's okay, I'll be fine do not worry bout this heart of mine just leave your love and hit the road. There's nothing you can do or say you're gonna break my heart anyway, so just, leave the pieces when you go.

想念会是呼吸的痛

2008-05-28T18:06:00.003+01:00

Sometimes, life doesnt give you a choice. Sometimes, painful decisions have to be made. Sometimes, indifference hurts more than angry words. Sometimes, you have to let go in order to learn.

We all have a reason to be afraid

2008-05-24T12:00:00.003+01:00

I am too lethargic to do anything except perch my fat heavy ass on the chair infront of the desktop and of course, writing this very random entry. Okay bottomline is - I've got nothing to do. Well not wholly ntd, actually. I've got Bio, Chem & Math Alevel paper in one week's time and I havent really commenced on any major mugging, yet. I can probably start making my room now cause it horribly resembles a pigpen. Or, I can start gathering da study materials, chunk them in da bag and 64 down to Lihx's house to watch Charmed :) -okay change of plan, she just called- We're going for lunch :3 Oh boy, come to think of it - I've actually got plenty to do !

Anyway, Lihx slept over yesterday for the weirdest reason. (Trust me when I mean weird, its out of the ordinary). She got locked out of her house ! Amazingly. So, generous me decided to provide her with warmth, shelter and food. Aww. Okay, talked a lot. Like throughout the whole night till quarter to three, till my saliva ran dry. And seriously, Lihx is like a snake. I was surprised to find myself still on the bed in the morning.

Hostess's back, this means I got to run soon. Okay, will update again if possible (Internet connection has been quite a nuiscience)

So long :3

"The course of true love, never did run smooth."
Even though, its all that matters.

Take me away, a secret place, a sweet escape

2008-05-18T10:27:00.004+01:00

May daily horoscope screams (thanks to Reg I'm very into astrology now) :

You are very money-conscious – in a way that many of your friends envy. You are organised enough to find that money gives you stability which you crave. And it is this emotional harmony that you are seeking at home, for which money, at the moment, is one of the most important tools.

OMG. Am I THAT materialistic ?!!? Okay, I guess, maybe. Hahaha. Anyway, finally finished delgated & Eu altogether. Gotta get on with Statutory Interpretation now ): Okay, soon. And I still can't find my Biology paper RAHHHHH annoying. I bet Tabitha ate it after I started scowling at her for scratching me. Its a super deep scratch like a pen knife cut hmpf. I honestly think she needs some anger management, the 'miao' I mean. Alrighty, one episode of one piece and then off to work :3 Lunch with Lihxy later perhaps ? I bet the pig is still sleeping, sigh. Adios.

Some people never say the words 'I love you.' It's not their style to be so bold. Some people never say those words: I love you. But, like a child, they're longing to be told.

Only tears will remind us

2008-05-15T21:38:00.002+01:00

6,667,871,675 people in this world, all struggling to survive in this battle called life. How different are we in the eyes of others ? Or rather, how similar are they in our eyes. We're all different in terms of what we are and what we do hence judgments arise from these differences which in turn develope into disputes. We all notice people, like how we are attracted to a certain someone, because they are different, speical in other words or like how we wrinke our noses at people who we label as queer and adnormal. Eventually, one will come to a point in life where he realises the similitude of truth - that beyond the simple facades, we are the same and that deep down inside, we all break the same way.

Take my fears & let my heart soar

2008-05-12T20:13:00.003+01:00

Everyone hopes for a little sunshine.

It’s not always that easy to distinguish the good guys from the bad ones. Sinners can surprise you and the same is true for saints. Why do we try to define people as simply good or evil? Because no one wants to admit that compassion and cruelty can live side by side in one heart, and that anybody is capable of anything, anybody.

Follow your inner moonlight - don't hide the madness

2008-05-10T10:26:00.012+01:00

International Evening :) More pictures Here. Just keep pressing the next button until you see me without my yellow kabaya.

07052008

I'M OFFICIALLY SEVENTEEN ! :D 171717171717171717 bwahahhaha. Thank you all for the birthday wishes and presents ! & those who really put in the effort to make this day extremely memorable. Although its a birthday celebrated without my family & friends (especailly TRC), it was still awesomelyawesometothemax and I mean Awesome :3

The day was filled with surprises. Firstly it was the present from Lihxy, Fel and Andy. THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU I LOVE IT. I have this fervent believe that Felywely has the best taste it da world (winks at huainuren). All the cards I recevied were sweet to the optimum :) And according to naughty Lihx, today is my one year old birthday -.- so she gave me a 'You're ONE' birthday card which was soooooooooooo cute & perfect except for the a year old baby part (LIHXUAN !). Hope you can feel my joy in the following peeeektures :3

Heehee, I felt like a princess with the Tiara & a sparkling badge which went 'Happy Birthday !' thanks to Neeta and her craziness :) Oh oh did you see my one-year-old birthday cake ? We ate another big strawberry one in the end which awfully tasted like Ichigo Bliss from Moss burger.

Wishes from back in Singapore put the biggest smile on my face. YOU GUYS ARE DA BEST :3

I love you means that I accept you for the person you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you when you’re in a bad mood or when you’re too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and don’t judge you for them, asking in return only that you don’t judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough to not let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly and hoping that you feel the same way.

Let go what makes you lonely, hold on to me

2008-05-06T21:35:00.002+01:00

Theres a place in my heart that won't kiss you goodbye Y

Use your head, but live with your heart

2008-05-05T22:34:00.008+01:00

As promised:

This picture is the coolest, I swear. I mean what can be better (other than a cup of delux sticky chewy chocolate) than five awesomest girls standing under the glaring hot sun, savouring the best moment of their lives. Okay, maybe not the best - haha- but expedition was good :] From the left, Reggievegggie, Pyins, thegreatestcreationofmankind (urhum), Lihxy & Soo. Look at us, all ready and perked up for out expedition :)

Picture above is due to overexcitement and major adrenaline rush.

A lot more pcitures with Pyins and Lihx which I havent managed to get hold of ): I should seriously charge my camera. Its decomposing in my drawer, sigh. Expedition was exciting, from the setting up of tents, to bbqing, to trekking, AND GO APE, everything was good. Trekking was, uh, muddified and totally unglamarous but it was a great experience, plus the company was amazing :]

Have I ever mentioned that Flying Fox is my middle name ?

1000 pounds for a ride on my back, safety not ensured.

-

So there you go, Dofe expedition :] Everything was close to perfect except for the absence of campfire songs ): The essence of camping was rather, empty without them. Sigh. "Camp fire's burning now, CAMP FIRE'S BURNING NOW !"

Studying session at Lihx's was (a lot more) productive (than the previous one), I swear. Its the mugging period, period. All the way people, I know you know that I know yall can make it. Cheers.

In life, we do things. Some things we wish we’d never done and some we wish we could replay a million times. But they make us who we are and, in the end, they shape and detail us. If we were to reserve them, we wouldn’t be the person we are today. So just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories. But never second guess who you are, where you’ve been and, most importantly, where you’re going.

I think I'm loved stoned

2008-05-03T22:30:00.004+01:00

"I never think there's a bitch,
theres a hurt soul underneath that."
-Tyra Banks

She's really kind of cool. As cocky or full-of-herself she may seem, she's still awesome, a total class of her own, I guess. It's so hard to keep up with my favourite Dramas/Serials/Anime/Reality tv nowadays. No thanks to upcoming exams & considering that Law Exam is in 3 weeks time, really scares me depsite my total lack of urgency and agogness. I think I'm demented. Anyhow, studying, right now, is mah first piority followed by Edward&Robert (HAHAHAHA). Just came back not long ago from Lihxy's house. Overnight at her place was beyond awesome ! Late night talks + snacking & charmed = All time love. Okay but minusing the scary moments when that heartless woman cheated my feelings and made me scream so much (3 times to be precise) while watching charmed. GOH LIHXUAN I SHALL GET MY REVENGE SOON >:(

Slept at 330 due to some UNKNOWN REASON (coughs coughs) and woke up at fricking 820. Early to the max. Had to go for Bio field trip. It was fun, educational and all but I was sooooo tired I took like at 45 mins nap ? And literally fell into lalaland. I saw bloodworms, leaches, nymphs, hundredsofotherqueerunidentifiedorganisms, 3 small ducks & one geese :3 Was dismissed at 5 so Lihx, Sam and I headed to Nando's to get some decent food. Reg joined later :] Went to play pool, okay it was hilarious and fun filled. Went back to Lihxy's house and now here I am talking gibberish and at the same time, wondering why is my right ear blocked. It must be the side effects from Samuel's GARGATUAN earphones, sigh. HAHAHHA.

I shall blog about International Evening tmrw when I have the time. Oh and when I finish coping peeektures from people cause I was lazy to charge da camera :3 Therefore in summary, friday was FANTABULOUS. I must admit that this cannot be compared to any of the 'culture mix' or 'understanding other cultures' programmes we use to attend back then in High school. It was serious hot stuff (sizzles) :] Oh I was Malay by the way aka a Yellow Airstewardess.

IM GOING TO ZZZZZ, see ya later.

A heart is a fragile thing, That's why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal, in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.

You can't go back, you can only remember

2008-04-30T19:55:00.010+01:00

Make a wish and place it in your heart.
Anything you want, everything you want.
Now believe it can come true.
You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from,
the next smile, the next wish come true.
But if you believe that it's right around the corner,
and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it,
to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you're wishing for.
The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it.
So make your wish.
- One Tree Hill

ALOHA WORLD, its good to see you again.
Have been wanting to blog for a really long time but I just didn't have the energy to do so. After the two fantastic weeks of holiday back home, life have been rather hetic, really. Test peiods are annoying ): But thankgawd, this week's the last tp week ! Hurrayyyyyyyyyy :D Okay so first part of this post is delicated to my sweethearts back in Spore.

& I love yall, with all that I am Y

2nd part of the post:
Dofe camp = Awesome :D, Trekking was 734538frh38fbhebk though.
Can't wait for international evening (FOOD).

Will post peeektures, when I get them :]
Meanwhile, so long & farewell.

P.s. I hate my retainers.

Never dull your shine for anyone else

2008-03-27T21:37:00.004Z

I am feeling very contented right now :] Like awesomeeeeeeeeee. I don't know why, its just this cryptic blissfulness blossoming in me, which is a good thing I suppose. Probably due to the fact that APRIL is coming and the grand arrival of long awaited April equals to BACK TO PUNY LIL SINGAPORE ! Totally exhilarating yo. I really really can't endure such anticipation & excitement & whatever emotions which can aptly describe my feelings right now :)

By the way, have been channelling a lot of time watching ANTM (which is so awesome I simply can't stop watching) :] Season 9 is kind of cool and although I probably can find out who's the winner by just googling it, I shan't. Spoilers are never well liked. I'm satisfied with the current episodes so far cause apparently, my faves are still in so no worries bro :D Faves = Chantel (blondie !) and Heather (an absolute inspiration) and half of Lisa (cause I think she's really edgy). I have a fetish for blondes. Oh well, can't help it :]

Can you believe that she was diagnosed with mild autism when she was 13 and still has symptoms of autism now ? I mean she's just stunning in this peeekture ! Heather is such an inspiration, I swear. If I'm not mistaken, I think the illness is called Asperger's syndrome ? You know, sometimes its just so heart warming to see people overcoming their own disabilities and just embracing every opportunity thrust at them, making the best of whatever they can get. Not a lot of people have such unwavering determination, or rather confidence and courage to do so. Perhaps one of the hardest thing in life is the desire of changing something you know you never can, like something you were born with. Yet, if we all just learn to take a step backwards and be truly happy with the way we are, it is probably one of the most gratifying feeling one can ever have - to just be confident with yourself and not let anyone dull your shine. Insecurities are just merely photophobic demons which will disintegrate once you let the light into your life :)

I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW :D

P.s. I need to shop badly :(

Take this love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever.

Cause theres a fine line between the truth and how we want it to be

2008-03-25T18:17:00.013Z

Coped pictures from Reggieveggie's blog :] I think these were taken during Cards session at their house. Teehee it was damn fun ! We played murderer and detective ? Total relevation of childhood, something which we all kind of repine over.

#1 Both of us are very good 'zipai' photographers :D
#2 This alien (a very cute one, who prefers to remain unknown for the good of mankind) is kwelxzxzxzxz :] :] :]
#3 Samuelding acts artistic

I ate almost half of Wendy's blackcurrent licorice sweets today. Sorry, I really couldnt resist the temptation. Oh and my retainers are hurting me ): Btw, I have yucky timetable tmrw (not that I want to complain about the abscence of testperiods): 9-1030 Chem 1030-330 Free periods 330-5 Law and Math. Honestly, no kidding yo. Okay I'm going to bed now, but one last thing before I scram..

I MISS YOU, BFF.

-

Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need is a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way.

Be yourself, everybody else is already taken

2008-03-23T11:58:00.004Z

IT'S SNOWING.

Okay that wasn't any random statement. IT IS REALLY SNOWING ! Between the seasonal transition of Winter to Spring. How queer. Anyway, there was mild snow yesterday (which awfully felt like curddled rain) but the snow this morning was rather heavy I must say, judging from the pearly alabaster frost-filled view outside. Prettyyyyyyyyayeyeyeyeye.

Long weekend equals to Y. Good friday + Easter Monday - Test periods = Fantastic week ahead. Went jogging on friday morning. We were lazy so we ended up swinging more than jogging hoho. Had lunch and met up with Reggie theyall and caught 10,000 BC. Awesome show. But could be better if they showed more of Mr. Spear tooth, which was so cute and fangy. Steven Strait is as swelteringly hot and pulchritudinous (new word I learnt hiak hiak) as usual. And Camilla Belle reminds me of Pocahuntas except she's prettier and her eyes are cerulean. I think I went home for dinner (okay I can't remember).

There you go, Hot guy plus Fangy sabertooth :)

Had an unfortunate morning yesterday. RAHHH IT WAS AWFUL. I can't believe I forgot my oyster for the second time. Uh the journey back home did kill a few calve muscles. Oh and I miss Lihx's house bus stop, unfortunately and however I hate to say this - again. They should honestly put lollipop mans at bus stops which are unrecognisible since they all scarily look so similar. Haha okay, maybe its just me. But thou shalt not miss thy stop ever again. Ended up at Eastcroy and missed two buses before I got on to one, sigh. Pigged out and then sixtyfourred to Eastcroy to meet Neeta and Sam. I'm lazy to blog in details so here are the significant events which followed:

Failed attempt to get into the Ice skating rink
Losage of Oyster
Commotion at Westcroystation
and.... SHOPPING :] :] :]

Okay, I splurged. But its rather harmless (smiles). Lihx and I needed catharsis. Dinner at Nando's was not bad, a little too spicy haha.

Yeah okay this is such a long entry cause I'm procastinating, again. I'm lazy to change. Can I just got to London with peejays :( ? I feel like hibernating today. Sighhhhhh. BUT ITS KARAOKE DAY :). Okay, I'm off. Ciao.

In my lifetime, I’ve come to realize that you can’t depend upon other people for what you want and you can’t be scared to go out there and get it. You have to dream big, wish hard, and chase after your goals, because no one is going to do it for you.

Total Eclipse of the Heart

2008-03-17T17:49:00.008Z

Jogging session on Satuday was goooooooood and very productive. Jog till I have mild muscle ache. Goodness. We're going to like keep jogging and maintain fit & healthy unlike Felwjw who was absent from school today tsk. Get well soon woman ! Breakfast's not breakfast without my breakfast partner :( Woah I used the word 'breakfast' three times in one sentence haha ! By the way, Spiderwick Chronicles is a lovely enchanting show featuring many ugly toadlike goblins which Samding keep insisting that I will turn to if I continue eating chocolate eggs (sticks tongue out). It was raining cats and dogs (hot fave phrase used to describe bad weather in primary school !) after the movie so we were all soaked to the skin when we reached home. Example:
Wet or what ? WET. Anyway Look at that <- DELISCIOUS SUCCULENT SCRUMPTIOUS Mango PuddingY

I screwed law. For the millionth time. Codswallop.

Today the stars fell down from the sky
burned the city while the people cried
& the shining sun faded to a dusty gray
& all the lovers' passion went away
today the mighty ocean was tamed by a cup
& the girl who loved you endlessly
finally gave up.

It's the beating in my chest that keeps my head from giving up

2008-03-15T09:31:00.002Z

Keep your love for the world, even though it beats you down, every day.

Life's too short to dwell on the unchangeable

2008-03-13T22:26:00.007Z

Hahah Web cams are such awesome homosapian creation :] Decided to make a last update before I go to bed. Anyhow, Lihxuan and I are officially crazy over ECullen but I'm a lot better cause I've got a substitute which I'm able to see almost every morning (starts simpering to self). I think the emo trend is starting again. Everyone's kinda depressed so here's to the people who are going through emotional wrecks:

Stay strong. Because you know what? Tragedies happen.
What are you gonna do give up? Quit?
No, I realize now that when you heart breaks,
you've got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive.
Because you are, and that pain you feel, thats life.
The confusion and fear, thats there to remind you that
somewhere out there is something better and
that something is worth fighting for.

Alright, cheer up mates ! Btw, here are some AWESOME games which you guys have to play. They used to be my favourites :]

PPG Pillow Fight
Donut factory boy 3
Halloweeeeen

Go play, they make you a lot happier ! Haha alrighty, time for bed :)

I wish I was eight again, because all he had to do was tag, and I'm it

2008-03-13T17:52:00.003Z

I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room fullof people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that.I know what it is not to feel like you’re in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know...you're with him. You're his.- P.S. I Love You

Awwwwwwww.
By the way, new skin. Okay its supposed to be for my Livejournal layout but I've found out that I've developed this correlative feeling for my current URL that its so hard for me to say goodbye to it. So I shall stick to this till later :) I guess Forever is still a lie for me then.

Anyhow, talking to my three best mates online today was fun filled and stress reliving. I honestly can't wait for April, I really can't.

We all just kind of wander around here aimlessly searching for someone who understands

2008-03-10T17:55:00.009Z

Study session with Lihxy wasssssss, a partial success :] Okay, well at least she completed her IELTS and one Math question whereas I completed 3 questions of my reading module homework. Well considering the fact that our main purpose was wholly just on seeing each other and catching up, its really rather productive I must say. Plus, I finally got to see Lihx's food galore in her room and obviously we had a great time pigging out as in, literally pigging out. Kudos to Lihxy :D Camwhoring session was fun and the whole 'getting lost' morning event was ratherrrrr, exciting HAHAHAHA. Her house is truly a maze (ing).

You can laugh if you got that ;)

Okay we were supposed to go jogging in the morning but I was bleeding profusely so we're postponing exercise day to Saturday instead :]

Btw, I spent 90 bucks talking on the phone yesterday. But for Lou, I think its worth it. Miss youuuuuuuuuuu ):

Everyone has wishes. Some of us spends a lifetime ticking off the wishes we've made from a long ceaseless list. But I've come to learn that wishes don't necessarily have to come true; just because we want them doesn't mean that we need them to be happy.

I am torn to do what I have to

2008-03-07T20:28:00.001Z

I have learned that almost all stereotypical terms have meaning as you grow. Such as, I love you but I'm not in love with you. I understand. Jumbled words start to make more sense like, as you fall I fall with you, as you breath I breath with you. I understand. Growing up could be possibly the hardest, easiest, ugliest, most beautiful thing that can happen to a person. I'm growing up.

Song beneath the song

2008-03-04T15:03:00.000Z

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA (faints)

Drink, drank, drunk

2008-03-02T14:38:00.001Z

The girls at the table (toast to the birthday girl !)

Feeeeeeelicia and reggie veggie :] Okay, I am soooo not red.

Do not notice the height difference, thank you :)

Happy Birthday Lixhy :) Hope you like the present and the card. Although this probably wasnt your best birthday bash everrrrrr, but at least the company was good. AND ! Youre seventeen now ! Although I am still (spiritually and mentally) older than you :]

Never bend your head. Always hold it high. Don't be afraid to look the world straight in the eye.

Smile, let the world know that today, youre much more stronger than yesterday

2008-03-02T01:38:00.002Z

Here's to all who saw the extrememly emoy one line post yesterday: Sorry. & I'm really fine now. Haha it was just a moment of emoness, which became overwhelmingly insurmountable. Thank yall for all the phonecalls and messages :) Oh and especially Wendy for listening to me prattle on about stuff which I wasnt even sure of myself. She's really a sweetheart. Cheers :)

Malaysian Night today was, impressive I must say. Imperial is awesome. But I'll never make it there anyway ): The play was good, rather atypical storyline. I didnt see the 'brother' thing coming, honestly. Hahaha. Lixhuan's party tmrw. Finally found the perfect dress from her. Okay I'm tired. Goodnight people, sweet dreams.

Anyone can give up. It's the easiest thing in
the world to do. But to be able to
hold it together when everyone else would understand
if you fell apart; that's true strength.

The only thing separating us was air

2008-02-28T22:52:00.004Z

Michelangelo said the best way to judge the essential elements of a sculpture is to throw it down a hill and the unimportant pieces will break away. Sometimes, life is like that. It tosses us down a hill. When we reach the bottom, only the important things are left, and that's when our vision clears. That's when we hold on tight to what we know, while hope stirs inside us. It's all a matter of perspective.

I think at times, we all delude ourselves a little in believing that we are who we are and thats sufficient. But in life, when you start to lose control over the things you care most and everything just starts to break into painful peices, all you can do is to hold on, perhaps, to the only lifeline you may find with crippling strength. At that moment, we begin to realise that deep within, we all want to be something more; something greater; something beyond the ordinary.

Screw Law ): Its painfully vexing and taxing and whatever appropriate word which can aptly describe how kieugrbhseklrbg I feel now ending with an -ing. Sigh. But phonecalls with people make me feel happier :)

Tennis & Badminton tmrw, I can't wait ! Malaysian night on Saturday with Bridge session before that. Lihxuan's FORMAL partaye on Sunday :]

Eventful weekend = no need to stay at home to face JTW = happy & rambunctious Lingjing. (Does victory sign)

Everybody got a drug dealer on speed dial

2008-02-22T23:15:00.000Z

Definitely, maybe.

Maya Hayes: What's the boy word for 'slut'?

Really sweet show :] Chick flick. Haha a little too long though. Great cast. I WANT TO WATCH 27 DRESSES D: &&&&& OVER HER DEAD BODY :D

Drown your sorrows

2008-02-21T22:51:00.000Z

Life is for dreamers & I'm a believer.

Above picture leads to:

Spice & Ice.

Three cheers to half terms :D

Jigsaw falling into place

2008-02-18T22:42:00.000Z

-
And it's hard to watch things change when all you want for them is to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go but you keep holding on and when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it but if it didn't really matter you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

As soon as you stop wanting something, you'll get it

2008-02-17T22:21:00.001Z

Above is my Chemisty teacher's enigmatic back view. Oh btw, good news to pops and mops back home, I'm starting to like chemistry again :D The last test sucked though, very very much.

Reg & I equals to: CHEM STUDENTS OF THE YEAR
Studious or what (?)

You will never be happy if you continue to
search for what happiness consists of.
You will never live if you are looking
for the meaning of life. & I'm still learning;
learning to not ask for too much;
learning to be myself & learning to be okay with it.

Insecurities behind her smile

2008-02-16T23:16:00.003Z

Happy Birthday Zab :D

Okay. It was rather obvious that all of us were HIGH. Erhumm. Hopefully, only a handful know what had happened. Teehee. Anyhow, happy sexy seventeen Zab :) You look lovely in your boots ! Btw, Neeta & Lin are born on the same day ! Same year, month and day. How cool is that ? I can't believe Lin's moving out soon. OMG JTW IS SO GOING TO PICK ON ME. Sigh. Can I to fry her please.

Never dull your shine for someone else

2008-02-15T22:15:00.002Z

Jumper is such a retarded show. I mean the teleporting thing is kwel but the ending is shit. Honestly, sucky ending. Like the producer ran out of sponsorship/money for the film or something. Its like, at least add in a little more climax which may probably help to make the show a teeny bit more sensible and "whole". Sigh. But you do feel like jumping after that haha. Went back to the school's Vday/icebreaker party but we were a tad late. The party ended like rather early ? But anyhow, met up with Reggie Veggie and Serene then went to dine at Miso.

Awesome day :)
Anyway, hope posting will be good. Yall can do it yo ! (Fingers crossed)

As boring as it can be, the Notebook do have reasonably meaningful quotes.

Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem to personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You're always close enough to touch, but never close enough to hold and it's enough to break your heart.
- The Notebook

Maybe if you reach out, someone will reach back for you

2008-02-14T23:43:00.000Z

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

& Here's to all the couples out there: May you hold on to your love ones, above everything else.

Btw, did I mention that CTC is a place filled with undiscovered talents ? Valentine's day concert today was AWESOMEEEEEEEEE + breath-taking + omgitwasdamngood (for some items). Listen to this ! She is awesome I tell you, AWESOME !

Told yeah she's awesome :]
Anyhow, I really miss Singapore's Valentine's day. Actually, more of SN's Vday. Oh gosh. I regret giving roses to people last year for Vday cause it was so temporary. Didn't occuer to me that, that will probably be my last Valentine spent in Singapore :( SIGH. Emoness ebbing in. Btw, hope you guys back there have a wonderful Valentine. I miss yall berrberrymuchhies. (Fly hugs)

People who are meant to be together, always find their way in the end Y

& thats just for the record, babe

2008-02-09T00:11:00.001Z

New year at Four seasons was mmmmmmhmmm, awesome.

Virago

2008-02-08T23:17:00.002Z

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

The series of Unfathomable events.

This is my housemate, Lin. I swear we do the weirdest things & JTW is probably the most fortunate hostess to have such affable people like us living under her roof. Yay :(

Super Massive Black Hole

2008-02-07T18:56:00.000Z

Walking Angpaos :D

I dunnchh knowwxz whattxz to0 takExz up for mah DOE. HoWsxhh ? :(

We all wanna believe in love.
We all wanna believe in something, bigger than just us.

新年快乐！

2008-02-06T00:16:00.000Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS !

AGGGRGHHH IUEGBHFAEBFIBEARKJB2#$^#%$&$%*^ ): I miss celebrating Lunar New Year in Sinagpore. Sigh. All the Angpaos, Oranges, sweets & visiting (I love visiting !). Haha okay I'm a weird girl. It has gotten to me that normal teenagers do not like visiting. But hey ! Its fun :D I get to eat free nuts & chocolates (YUM). Oh well, despite my fervent desire to just hop on to a plane and fly back to Sg for a day just to celebrate New year, my very first not-spent-with-parents-new-year was equally interesting and warm-hearted.

Went out with Pyins, Julia & Jolene after school. Headed to Somerfield to grab our ingredients & then to Primark to get our 'auspiscious' clothes :] Okay I guess we took quite a long time to get the shopping for clothes done cause the fish from the supermarket stinked really badly when we opened it. Thats the reason why I never liked fish - they stink. So when we got all our stuff, rattled to Pyin's place to make our New year dinner ! We made Tomyam & Bakuteh. Obviously I wasnt the one who did the cooking. The house wont be there by now if I did it haha. Oh and apparently, Home Econs finally proved to me that it isnt a redundant subject which only makes you feel worse about your hopelessness in cooking. It came into good use during the chopping of the ingredients HAH, I chopped beautifully yo.

The tomyam was a success ! But the other one didnt quite turn out the right way. It tasted a little like sugar+salt+distilledwater&herbs. Hahaha but we tried to finish it anyhow. Pyins's hostess is honestly the coolest hostes everrrrrr ! She makes like the best Chappati :D :D Unlike JTW. After dinner was just a lot of girl talks which was damn fun & hilarious. And we totally forgot the time ! I reached home at like 12am and I was fricking scared on the journey back home since my house isnt exactly the nearest place anyone can get. I kept having wild immaginations about kidnappers/rapists jumping out of the bush and attack me. I had this urge to pick up the phone and call Loulou to whine buttttttttttttt I was a tad too slow to realise I was in Englang which is 3487532948245632465375 gazillion miles away from her :( Oh and I almost freaked myself out cause I kept thinking that my 412 bus is a ghost bus and its bringing me to Hades or something -_- Oh well, anyhow I reached home safe and sound. Lesson learnt: Never ever ever stay out this late. I probably just go mental and blow up like an over oxygenated pufferfish.

Teeheehee ! Yeah :] It wasnt fabulous but it was still great.
Btw, Pyinnie is officially known as PYINS :] :] Hahah I'm a creative gal. Everyone is going to wear red for school tmrw ! Yay we're tradition people !

P.s. I'm wearing pink. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm trying to find myself as a person, sometimes that's not easy to do. Millions of people live their entire lives without finding themselves. But it is something i must do. -Marilyn Monroe

Got a suitcase full of memories of the good times that we've had

2008-02-04T18:49:00.000Z

Law test period was a complete disaster. Well, considering the fact that we all know the question beforehand and had like two weeks to prepare for it ? But of course, being the usual typical Singaporean student, I only started memorizing the stuff the night before. Last minute studying is da bomb. Anyhow, thats not the point. Point is, its impossible to finish a full law question in 45mins ! Thats total crap. Its even worse than combined humanities ? So despite having the full essay on the disadvantages of the Mischief rule well rehearsed in my head, I ended up writing only 4 sentences for the question. Awesome. Hopefully, Math's a saving grace.

Did I mention about my recent fetish for shades ?

Was out with Hash, Zabibo & Naz on Saturday. Did some shopping for necessities. I finally got my holepuncher and of course, have managed to do some decent filing :] I am such a orgarnized and neat gal. Hurrah. Had much fun and laughter on Saturday haha, I mean the day was simply hilarious :) Btw, heard of human sale ?

HAHAHAHAHAH. Ask me why do I look like a riceball. Cause its fricking cold here ! So cold that I have been wearing my bullet proof jacket for a week its starting to stink. Sigh. Go away Feburary, shoo !

I DONT WANT TO DO BIO. I DONT WANT TO DO BIO (chants).
Biology is sucha self complex subject. Meaning the more you read and do, the more confuse you get. So we should all not read or do Bio :]

SIGHHHHHHHH. Anyway, havent been in touch with the girlfriends lately, Im starting to miss them so much. Can Twinnie & Loulou go get a webcam so we can do stupid stuff like this:

and this:

Preferably with a mike :D
Anyhow, I shall go do math.
I miss Monkey, Twinnie & Loulou very much right now.
I miss whining together with Monkey on how much we hate Emaths.
I miss tuitioning with Twinnie and HER encouragements
on how Emaths is way better than Amaths.
I miss doing Emaths with Loulou at Gardens.
MATHS.IS.BAD :(

& heres to the angels:

You make me smile though you're far away.

Will you catch me when I fall ?

2008-01-30T15:11:00.000Z

Heyall :] I know Ive been Mia-ing for a rather long period of time. So the goodnews is that: I'm still alive ! Btw, new layout. Got it from blogskins cause I really have no time to make one, like before. & I miss my friends very much. Those back in the tiny-little-summer-all-year-round-dot, Singapore. Can't wait for April :) Oh and I miss blogging very much so I shall update again real soon. But not now cause, Janethewitch is back and if she sees me using the computer at this time, she's going to sue me for 'mis-using' / 'over-using' her electricity which I jolly well paid for, fairly. So alrighty, tata for now.

It seems to me that we learn each other in stages: facts first, meanings later, like explorers who stumble on bodies of water without knowing at first whether they've encountered god-shrouded rivers or vast oceans. We press on until we know, but as we go something is lost: the new becomes old and then taken for granted and then forgotten.

Only you (and you only)

2008-01-07T16:09:00.000Z

I'm going to blog about a lot of things really soon ! :D So just came by to say I LOVE:
AMANDA AWYONG ZHIXIN
LOUISA TAN HANLIN
CHARMAINE LIM HUIZHI
REBERCCA GOH _ _
CINDY CHIA XIN YU
DIANA HO SHU LI
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
EMAIN LEE _ _

BUCKETLOADS <3

Nobody forgets what happens, the secret is to learn to live with it

2007-12-31T03:29:00.000Z

I have the weirdest people talking to me online now oh gosh.

Anwayyyyyyyyyy ! I just realised how time flies. Tomorrow will be the 1st and my sister will be flying off on the second. Then after nine days, it'll be me at the airport bading goodbye. OMGXZXZXZ, what is this manzxzxz. Oh btw, I think the hostess will probably kick me out of her house or not let me in when I'm there cause I'm suppose to call Mrs. Luxton to confirm my arrival and "introduce myself" but I haven't and don't really plan to bwahahhaha.

Okay my nieces just sent me 5 msges at one shot. This is why you should never give your handphone number to kids younger than the age of 8 for both theirs and your own good :]

New year part will be awesome later :] Bim's bringing Nachos !

Maybe we all give our hearts uncritically to those who won't think about us in return

2007-12-29T13:27:00.000Z

To the brave and beautiful who deserves so much better:

Hey there, I know its been real hard but I just want you to know that no matter what happens and even if all else fails, I'll always be behind you, to cushion your fall. So stay strong and I'm not going to worry cause, I know you know that I know you can do it :], that soon you'll be moving forward and you'll be whole once again. Its scary how everything can change in a blink of an eye, how flames turn into dust. Its natural that tears will come without invitation but trust me, crying can make us stronger, it makes us see ourselves more clearly. I won't expect you to recover over a day's grace so please if you want to scream or cry or even hit, just give me a ring and I'll be there if possible. I understand that you have to be strong, for the people you don't want to hurt, but take a break once in awhile yeah ? The ability to get back up depends on the number of times you've been knocked down, and I believe you can do it. Gather strength from this pain, and it'll all be over soon. It'll be hard but its worth it. Gambatte ! Love you Y

P.s. Or we can make things easier if you just let me kill them hiak hiak

xoxo
Ultimate.

Its hard to fight when you wished you were never born

2007-12-28T04:58:00.000Z

National Treasure was awesome, and even better when watched with my dearest loulou :]

-

I use to believe in honesty even though it hurts. I believed that it'll save the person from more hurt down the road. But somehow, I guess there are just certain things in life that are better off unknown; things you wish you never said or asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt. Because if words do not please your ears, they'll turn into bullets and you'll just wind up hurting yourself. & I learnt that maybe sometimes, it pays to be honest.

No matter how badly you think your situation is right now, Del Fruto Show Won Top Tory.

The heart leads you back

2007-12-27T12:50:00.000Z

I am Legend at Suntec Cinema
Shopping for shorts and Bugis street
Hair cut at Bishan
Chill out at KFC

All of these sums up to - A great day spent with Twinnie my one and only favourite Twin :] Teeheehee. Oh and I'm still getting use to my new hairstyle. I really feel like a doll -_- and according to Becks, its a Cheenajapdoll. Gosh. Oh well, I guess change is never easy :/

You fight to hold on.

In love with the struggle

2007-12-26T04:32:00.000Z

Post Christmas Party with TRC was abound with food (as usual), pretty gifts, beautiful smiles and Guitar Heroes. Oh and if you havent notice our TRC caps, please refer to the picture above, we're all wearing it :D HAHAHHAHA isn't it awesome ? I bet Main and Bim spent like a lot of effort in it, THANK YOU FRIENDS you guys are honestly the sweeeeeeeetest :) Spent the whole afternoon playing Guitar Heroes which kind of rock cause the game was really addictive ! Gift exchange was fun too. I received quite a number of earings HAHAH YES NOT CLIP ONS duh-h. I love every single one of them. Btw, more pictures coming up !

There are certainly more pictures but right now, these are all I can get my hands on :] Can't wait for new year part on the 31st. Aww, life would be so miserable without The Recess Clique ! Btw, dearest Cinchy and Cricket, please do get well soon okay ? Love love.

Over the past year, I've learned so much about love and life. Even if I could, I wouldn't take back all the things I've done because they got me here, to this moment.

Remember, this December: Love is stronger than money

2007-12-25T12:25:00.000Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y

To all: Hope yall have a wonderful Christmas :)

-

Christmas was well spent with the family. Unfortunately Pop is sick so he wasnt there. Get well soon ! I think my nieces are awfully adorable and OMGAWDSXZXZXZ I'm having a nephew soon :] Finally a prince for me to play ! Hurrah :D

Maybe if you reach out, someone will reach back for you

2007-12-23T04:42:00.000Z

大家好! 我回来le!

Qiangqiangqiangqiang :] Hey yall ! I'm backkkkkkkk !
Cheeeenaland was funner than expected hahaha. Did a lot of shopping and of course, at a lot. Hahah I gained 15kg ! As in my luggage :) We bought like 30kg of clothes ? Thank god it didnt overload yay :] Look at this:

Taiwan and Shenzhen are loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
And the things there are so cheap, I was like stupefied. You totally will feel a sense of accomplishment after slashing a reasonable amount of price :] Ohmyyyyyyy, anyone who wants to organise a trip to cheenaland, count me in ! :)

Hokay, not only were the stuff cheap and good, the Neoprint machines are fantastic too. I mean the service. They provide like free lamintion and they actually have neoprint sale ! Like buy one get one free ? Meaning you get two sets of pictures instead of the regular one :D Cool or what. And they have special envelopes for you to store your prints. Aww, Singapore should so pick this up. Shopping at their Yeshi with our new Taiwan friends was really cool :] We had a hell load of fun and food. Hahahhaa :O

Awwwwwwwwwww, I miss Cheeeeenaland. But its good to be back :)

The lights and the colours of planets and stars
cannot be revealed with simple human's minds.

Star Awards 2007

2007-12-16T04:47:00.000Z

This year's Star Awards was so much better than last year's one (at least I get to see the people live) although there wasn't any free-flow drinks during the show. But Mediacorp studio is definitely a more suitable place as compared to St. James power station which is totally pointless :] Manda came over around five-sixish, then we got dressed and cabbed down to the studio even though it was rather near hahaha. Was suppose to meet Jacqueline (Josephine HAHAHAH) at 630 to get the tickets but being the typical Singaporean, we were there early. Rotted for awhile and panicked when the ursher told us that he didnt have our tickets and Jacqueline remained uncontactable until 640 plus. And the usher guy kept staring at us >:( But ohwell, after much complication, we fianlly managed to get our tickets ! As usual, stated on the invitation card was Christine Tan and guest :] Felt rather priviledged being Christine and Manda was Tan's guest. Everything was kind of similar to the 2005 one, we still had to walk a long way to reach the studio. Oh the only difference was that we were a row further back, but thank goodness it was centralised and we were behind all the artists :] And thank goodnes we didnt turn up in jeans cause the card said, Dressing: Formal. And everyone was really formal :O

It's a tradition that camwhoring always takes place before the show begins :]
So anyway, we were quite happy with our seats. The two people beside us were happy too ! They had unlimited supply of free entertainment (apart from the program itself) throughout the whole show ! Exclusive alright :] (Okay actually I think they thought we were freaks bwahahha)

Okay, a little shaky. Haha the girl in red was super cute ! She was running up and down the aisle infront of Manda and I. She changed out of her angpaodress right after the scene. Cutexzxzxz.

The walking out was grand though :] And the stage was really pretty. Jessica Liu's legs are damn hot and Huangbiren looked so cute pregnant ! Anyway my Korean guy was really Kawaii too -melts. And I realise that Chenliping is really skinny now, like woah ! She's not chubby anymore :( Look at this:

Shousile ! Skinny or what ?
Hahahha I think the best part of this year's Star Awards is that a lot of long forgottened actors and actresses were remembered once again. Like the one who got best actress and the other one which clinched the best supporting actresses. Top ten was uhhhhhhhh, a shocking one. Especially for the women's one. I still can't believe Jeanette Aw, Fiona Xie and Baiweixiu didnt get in. Michelle Chia should just go away >:O

Oh btw, refreshments were great too ! Manda and I "accidentally" drank a cup of wine. It sucked. Hooooookay, thats all about the SA. Will be away in Cheeeeeeenaland tmrw. Sighhh, byebye folks, better miss me :D

It makes my heart bleed.

But in the end, the world will pay

2007-12-12T13:56:00.000Z

Alvin and the Chipmunks is such a laudable show. Haha I mean, Theodore is so cute ! :D :D Okay so are the other Chipmunks. This show is simply hilarious and entertaining. Oh but the ending sucks big time, its like abrupt and out of nowhere. Oh well, the show's still good anyhow.

Lunched with Manda today :] Ate this extremely spicy Laksa at Tpy which was spicy to the max hahaha. Then after that, played Audition at the cyber cafe there. Hoho, I'm lovin' 8keys. But they are really freaking hard to play with. After an hour, we decided to watch the show so we got tickets and chionged to the Cinema. Hahah omg it was super funny cause Manda and I thought that Alvin was actually Dave (the man) since it was 'Alvin and the chipmunks' so when we saw that Alvin had a voiceover, we were like "why would a man have a voiceover ?" So at the part when Dave just introduced that his name was DAVE, Manda and I were like still wondering why did Alvin need a voiceover.

Me: The guy's name is Alvin right.
Manda: Yah should be what.
Me: Then how come ?
Manda: Oh NO ! HIS NAME IS DAVE !

Bwahahahahhahahahahah and we started laughing till our stomach cramped. Btw, the Cinema was like Antartica. So I borrowed Manda's jacket sleeves hahahah.

After the movie, we went to Coffee Bean and got a hot chocolate to defreeze ourselves. Which actually worked. We talked about the weirdest things which can't be disclosed here. And I'm not going to call myself Lindo (stares at manda a.k.a Waverly). Hahah alrighty, time's up. Tata :]

I don't know why, but I've always been big on happy endings. You see, to me, the most romantic, beautiful love stories ever were the ones where two people meet, fall in love, and then 50 or 60 years later, one of them dies. Then a few days after that the other one dies because they just can't bear to live without each other.

Nothing's Going to Change Destiny

2007-12-10T13:22:00.000Z

Honestly, I think Bridge is one of the most addictive game on Earth; no matter how you play it. An amazing day well spent with Mandathemonkey and Crusharooooo Andrea :] Ate xlb for lunch cause Subway was packed with people, probably due to Hero set meals. Oh and yknw what ! My shades broke D: It wasn't even a week old ! SIGHHHHHHHXZXZ life is always unfair to things that aren't living. This reminds me of my poor one day old ex-twinnie ring. In loving memories of it.

Today was suppose to be exercise day whereby we were to make full use of this day doing vigorous muscular contractions in order to repay the lack-of-exercise-debt which was inccurred during the hols and, at the same time, reduce the amount of stored lipids under our skin's submucous layer. However, it begin to pour like nobody's business so Andrea suggested a great indoor, much missed activity - bowling ! Butttttttttt, Manda was being a joykiller and objected D: So in the end ! We went to Andrea's house to play our favourite card game - Bridge :]

German Bridge is really fun and exciting ! Its really kind of weird playing bridge in threes but, it was a piece of cake for Bridge addicts like us :D After twentythree straight games of German Bridge, we took a little break. And straight after the break, the real Bridge match begin ! Andrea sister joined us :] Okay so we kept playing until time was up.

So here's the results of our game :] Apparently, Manda's really really getting good at this :O

German Bridge #1

Andrea – 5
Manda - 6
Jing - 4

Trump – clubs

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #2

Andrea – 5
Manda – 6
Jing – 5

Trump – Diamond

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #3

Andrea – 7
Manda – 4
Jing - 4

Trump – Clubs

NO WIN NO LOSE

German Bridge #4

Andrea – 6
Manda – 5
Jing – 6

Trump – Hearts

LINGJING WON :]

GERMAN Bridge #5

Andrea – 5
Manda – 4
Jing – 8

Trump – Hearts

ANDREA WON :]

German Bridge #6

Andrea – 6
Manda – 6
Jing – 5

Trump – Spade

LINGJING WON :]

German Bridge #7

Andrea – 6
Manda – 6
Jing – 5

Trump – Diamond

DRAWWWWWWWWW !

German Bridge #8

Andrea – 7
Manda – 4
Jing – 6

Trump – Diamond

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #9

Andrea – 4
Manda – 6
Jing – 7

Trump – Diamond

DRAWWWWWW !

German Bridge #10

Andrea – 6
Manda – 7
Jing – 4

Trump – Clubs

ANDREA WON !

German Bridge #11

Andrea – 7
Manda – 5
Jing – 5

Trump – Diamond

MANDA WON !

German Bridge #12

Andrea – 9
Manda – 3
Jing – 5

Trump – Hearts

MANDA WON !

German Bridge #13

Andrea – 5
Manda – 5
Jing – 7

Trump – Spade

EVERYONE WON ! :D :D :D :D :D

German Bridge #14

Andrea – 6
Manda – 4
Jing – 7

Trump – Spade

DRAWWWWWWWWWWWW !

German Bridge #15

Andrea – 4
Manda – 6
Jing – 7

Trump – Diamond

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #16

Andrea – 6
Manda – 5
Jing – 6

Trump – Diamond

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #16

Andrea – 6
Manda – 5
Jing – 6

Trump – Hearts

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #17

Andrea – 6
Manda – 5
Jing – 6

Trump – Spades

LINGJING WON :]

German Bridge #18

Andrea – 5
Manda – 6
Jing – 6

Trump –Hearts

LINGJING WON :]

German Bridge #19

Andrea – 6
Manda –4
Jing – 7

Trump –Hearts

DRAWWWWWWWWW !
German Bridge #20

Andrea – 5
Manda – 3
Jing – 9 (13)

Trump – Spades (7)

MANDA WON :]

German Bridge #21

Andrea – 4
Manda – 6
Jing – 8

Trump – Spades (7)

EVERYONE WON ! :D :D :D :D :D

German Bridge #22

Andrea – 7
Manda – 3
Jing – 7

Trump – Spades (7)

ANDREA WON ! :]

German Bridge #23

Andrea – 5
Manda – 6
Jing – 6

Trump – Clubs

ANDREA WON ! :]

German Bridge #24

Andrea – 5
Manda – 6
Jing – 6

Trump – Clubs

ANDREA WON ! :]

So in a nutshell, today isn't productive at all cause our goal was obviously not achieved but, we had major brain exercise due to the Bridge games. Hahahahahha. More get together session soon ! I really miss sleeping over at Andrea's even though it was only once. Oh well. My period's late D:

Cause love's such an old fashioned word, and love dares you to care.
For the people on the edge of the night and love dares you to
change our way of caring about ourselves.

Taradiddle

2007-12-09T16:02:00.000Z

"Not a hero unless you die. Our species eat the wounded ones."

& You Didn't Mean To Love Me Back But I Know You Did

2007-12-08T15:14:00.000Z

I think the picture up there is hilarious. Hahahaha.
I think I'm growing to be more independent :D Okay basically, I'm growing haha. Anyway, today was sending Twinnie and Becks off to Vietnam day D: All of us were very sad. Hole lost her neighbour (which she can't stop whining about hiak) and I lost my Twinnie and Beckswecks D: Okay I sound as if they are migrating to Vietnam. No no they aren't haha they'll be back on the 16 I suppose so ? So ! Today was ultimate. But as usual, Jing is extremely lazy to blog about it and sadly we didn't take any pictures today :( just silly videos which MUST be hidden from the world cause its strictly for private viewing only (STARES AT BIM) :D Hence, I'm going to copy and paste the blog entries from my dearest friends with(out) benefit :]

From Loulou's: Http://www.kkvetch.blogspot.com
(btw, kvetch kinda means complaining ? Lou loves to act cheem)
"oh well, woke up early to go the the airport to send charm & becks off at the budget terminal. cinch overslept so we were late oops. anyway went to popeyes to eat & some weird guy passed me a tissue with his friend's number on it and asked me to call him later on -__- so retarded. jing & hole wanted to call and talk rubbish, but i left early so too bad hahah."

OH YEAH about the weird guy, we totally forgot about calling him. Haha trust me it was super amusing I was there and I couldn't stop staring oops. This proves something, Lou should never walk on the streets alone cause she'll have no one to protect her from ugly retarded guys who will probably greatly traumatize her and leave an emotional scar. Yeah, so Lou BEWAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

And from Bim's blog: Http://www.ohgravitas.blogspot.com
(its a veyr cheem url too)
"yup i woke up early early in the morning to send both becks & charm off from budget terminal. we (jing, cinch, lou & i) were supposed to meet at 10.45am at terminal 2 but unfortunately cinch overslept so yeahhhhhh, we know that ending hahahah. well we are so proud of jing cause that was the first time she took a train to the airport BY HERSELF ( :0 ) & she was the first to reach ! ahahha i was on the train behind her & it is funny how we never thought of calling each other maybe we wouldnt have been so bored hahahahah. "

Evidence of independence: Training all the way to Changi airport ALONE. See, I told you I'm growing haha. I'm proud :D And Bim forgot to mention that she was late for uhhhhhh 7 minutes hahaha. Okay I gotta harp on that cause, normally ~~I'm always the one who's late~~. Hee. Okay I'm feeling really slack nowwwwwwww so go to her blog for more interesting events :D

There's a kind of emptiness that can fill you. There's a kind of hunger that can eat you up. There's a cold and darker side of the moonlight. And there's a lonely side of love.

December Seven

2007-12-07T15:59:00.000Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTAAAAAAAA Y

Yknw I love and miss you very much :( Hurry come home & we'll have plenty of things to gossip about. Happy Nocturnal Neckbreaking Nineteen sunshine :]

I Watch The World Around Me Crumble

2007-12-07T12:32:00.000Z

Bwahahahhaha I think we totally freaked the guy infront of us out while taking this shot, owning to the numerous Ngs cause Twinnie can't stop giggling ! Its kinda freaky in a cute way :D

So as you can see, today was well spent with Twinnie again :] Went out with her two days in a row and the fun just never ends. Went to Vivo to get my leather jacket WHICH WAS AWESOME and of course, to get the remaining presents. Honestly, theres really nothing much in Vivo, sigh. But we managed to squeeze something out of nothing anyway. OH AND YKNW WHAT D: I lost my ring which was not even two days old D: D: D: D: Clearly, I was unbeknownst about it when the ring slipped off my finger. Or maybe Invisible Man from Heroes stole it from me >:O Anyhows, I managed to find a close to identical one at Bishan which only cost 10 bucks including engraving. I shall not mention about what happened at the shop (BWAHAHHAHAH STARES AT TWINNIE) it was hilarious and so....... crudely wrong ? Thou shalt not lose thy ring again. After killing hours of time, we headed to AMK. Twinnie went to church and I met Tutu to collect my clothes :) Its a happy day, with abundance of pictures to comemorade :]

There are still plenty more but I'm lazy to upload all of them. Anyway they are all equally silly but I like :] Twinnie Winnie's flying off really soon. I'm going to miss her a hell loads, like really really and Becksy Wecksy too D: Why can't Vietnam be just a stone's throw away ? :(

SAVE THE CHEERLEADER.

SAVE THE WORLD.

Heroooooooooooooooooooooes Y

Collecting Social Graces

2007-12-06T12:27:00.000Z

Sorry for the immense lack of update D: My computer is currently in a very bad shape, in other words, its dying, Yay. Plagued with 166 viruses causing it to become dysfunctional, sigh. By the way ! THIS WEEK HAS BEEN FREAKING AWESOME :] Okay so every week has been awesome to me but this week's different. Its FREAKING awesome :)

Went Christmas shopping with Twinnie today and I must say we're rather efficient please. Only left two more presents to get and we're done for Christmas :D OH OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG LINGJING PIERCED HER EARSSSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yayness to me. Haha I can't believe I did it, no no I can't. HAH I feel super. Anyway, it was super pain. Freaking hurts like hell. People who told me that it isnt pain (you guys had good intentions, I know) are big fat liars D: Hahaha but its okay, I survived it ! Cause Twinnie was there for me to GRAB haha. Love her ttm :]

I have a hole ! Inside my............ EAR !!!
Okay I'm mad. And I'm overspending again. Haha but its worth it :] Shopping again tmrw with Twinnie and boy am I going to get my leather jacket.

P.s. I can't wait for Christmas.

We crossed paths for a reason,
the planets align in that particular season.
It's clear to me that we'll eventually be inseparable.

Wishes Abrogate Hopes

2007-12-03T12:55:00.000Z

Round of applause for: Manda (the Indian), Charm (the Chinese), Loulou (the Indian), Me (the Thai), Cinch (the Indian), Emain (the Indian), Hole (the Malay) and Becks (the Tibetan ?) :D

Hahaha okay so, we got a lot of Indians, still we're cooler than ice cubes. Trc Ethnic party was amazing. I mean seriously, its the craziest thing I've ever done. Crazy but amazing :) Okay I think you get the idea of "ethnic" party yeah ? Further elaboration is needless. Sooooooooooooooooooooo we'll have PICTURES !

Oh by the way, Bridge session before the party was GREAAAAAAT haha. Hole and I make good partners :) And she learnt bridge in a day ! :O

& I didn't mean to fall in love with you.
But I did.

Keep Your Eyes Closed If You Don't Want To See The Truth

2007-12-03T12:44:00.000Z

Is this Twinnie or Twinnie? :D

Either way, I love you many Twinnie! <3

Today's ethnic party was fun wun (: Upload the pictures soon okay. The unglam twister ones, too! AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I can't wait for our outings :D Before I fly off for many days. Oh and I'm helping you charge your Pod. Return it to you when I see you! :D Thank you.

<3>

Twinnie.

So lets ditch this city, before we sober up

2007-12-02T04:38:00.000Z

Together, we will float like Angels.

Bonjour ! T'amine stmick adieu shelyar ?
Okay haha, I came up with the second part :] Anyway friends, I wonder hows life for you cause all I can say is that mine has been fantastic so far ! Alrighty lets update about this week.

Enchanted with Loulou was haha uhhhh enchanting ! We got couple seats and the couple beside me was hilarious :O I mean seriously. I bet the girl was some cheena lianxzxz. Yeah btw, Enchanted is a very happy show :D Not fantastic but yeah happy. Haha I almost dozed off half way BUT that was due to the major lack of sleep that morning. Teeheehee. Oh btw bad news, I cracked my Dad's computer and the repercussions are DDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

I forgot what happened on wednesday. Oh I know ! I slept a lot.

Twinnie came over on thursday to do her church thing blog. It was fruitful :] The picture came out better than we thought haha. FOUR HOURS OF HARD WORK DUDE. Imagine spending four killer hours infront of the screen. Okay it wasnt really killer cause half the time, we were fighting for butt space on the chair. Oh and Twinnie has to stop me from erasing faces from the pictures :O Hahahaha. Despite the fact that she refuse to let me put any pretty pink in the picture (haha though I managed to squeeze one in without her knwing at first), we still had plenty of fun :)

Friday was HEROES with most of TRC namely, CRICKET, BIMBO, LOULOU & BECKS :D Heroes is such a good and gory show which cannot be watched when one's alone. Haha but its really good though their powers are kind of scary. Hiro is soooooooo adorable ! As in literally. YATTAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! O.M.G haha. Oh and Hole got her braces on ! We ate a lot yes, like A LOT. Felt like a pig -_- But we had a wonderful time. Friends left around nine plus :D

Yesterday was well spent with Monkey :D We travelled from Vivo the citylink mall to Tpy. Hahah. Vivo is ridiculously big, yet theres nothing there really. Except for my leather jacket from forever 21 WHICH I AM DETERMINED TO GET. Went to citylinkmall and Suntec. We were looking for shades but yeah instead both of us bought footwear from DMK again. Haha, I LIKE :D -grins. Found our almost perfect shades at this store called SIX (with some round dots design) BUT APPARENTLY they only have one stock. Meaning all their shades are like cracked, secondhandishly poor quality displayed on the racks. Yewwwwww, and its expensive D: Soooooooo, we left the place dejected and that completely crashhhedddddd our morale SIGH. Tpy gave us hope though :D Not only did we find our shades there Manda found cheap cheap Dvd for sale ! Like 10 bucks for one series ? Wicked. Oh and I returned Secret and rented Shaggy dog. Both equally awesome :D

MANDA GOT A DISTINCTION FOR HER DIPLOMA OMG OMG OMG.
How awesome is that. Now I can proudly claim that my BFF is a distinctiondiploma-er. Loveyoumanymanymanymany, deep down to the heart of earth Y

Nowwwwwwwwwwwwww, I need to wash up and get to work.
Tata for now.

Happiness only exist in dreams

2007-11-28T18:20:00.000Z

INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA.

Somebody give me sleeping pills please. Rah I went to bed at like 1130 and now its 2.22. Tadaaaaaa ! Unsurprisingly, I'm still awake. And Twinnie's coming over at 1030 which means I SHOULD BE ASLEEP BY NOW. Honestly, people shoudn't stay up late cause they think of the weirdest things when they do. I mean, people tend to think too much when they try to fall asleep (especially one is in a not-very-sleepy-yet-suppose-to-get-to-bed mood). And always, in the end you'll end up wide awake, with dilated pupils fixed on your bedroom's ceiling, like how I was a few minutes ago. Even the slightest things trigger you to think about things you always try to avoid. Like the sudden thundering sound just now reminded me of the day that I woke up to my Mum's wailing and the bitter news of my brother's accident. You just can't stop thinking; about the past, present and maybe the future. Mayhap this is what they call reflecting. I reckon its more of the torturing of soul. Such incongruity should cease !

Okay ignore the above paragraph. I needed some catharsis to emote and at the same time, make myself sleepy. Cause apparently, reading and watching Harry Potter ain't helping. Bwahahaha.

Oh btw, Lingjing loves money :O

I just robbed an Atm machine (IN MY DREAMS).
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OKAY OMG I CAN'T STAND IT, I'm going to go eat cheese. Maybe it'll help.

Goodbye yall.

Hollywood Glam <3

2007-11-28T09:24:00.000Z

Prom was supercalifragilisticexpialidocious Y

Took so many pictures until my cam went completely FLAT. Haha oh man, I'm going to miss Sn so much :( Prom was great, a marvelous night to mark the end of high school life. Although the preparation for the night was chaotic, everything was all worthwhile :) Post prom overnight at 119A was fantastic too !

Click HERE :D for all the pictures. I combined some from everywhere to make it more complete. Teehee, happy viewing the 208 pictures then :]

Thats all folks :]

Prom Night Fever

2007-11-28T07:32:00.000Z

Hey yall. Pictures are in the process of uploading, so in the meantime, stay tune :]

All or Nothing

2007-11-24T15:51:00.000Z

Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people's confidence in you.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

Dear Andrea, your quiz is super accurate ! Maybe excpet for the third para. Hahaha

The Heart Never Lies

2007-11-24T08:11:00.000Z

(points above) is such a nice song ! Wanting has good taste (not) HAHA.

By the way, post updated with pictures ! Click Here :)

Pictures from Loulou !

I think I'll class item for prom will be greattttt :D

Something that never changes

2007-11-22T16:59:00.000Z

Hahahhaha guess who guess who ! :)

When you're a little kid, you're a little bit of everything. Artist, scientist, athlete, scholar... Sometimes it seems like growing up is the process of giving those things up. One by one. I guess we all have one thing we regret giving up. One thing we really miss. That we gave up because we were too lazy or, we couldn't stick it out or, because we were afraid.
Regrets are formed not because one is incapable, they are formed when one starts giving up.

One lie sparkles another

2007-11-22T15:52:00.000Z

Brittany's out D: I don't like Dionne. She's such a cheapo, stingy, greedy woman. I can't believe she actually wanted to keep like every single dress she modelled in, I mean thats so uhhhhh, shameless. Hah. Alrighty, I shall briefly touch on the wonderful events which took place over the past few days :)

Yeah so I finally got my prom dress after devoting ihavenoideahowmanylongdays looking for it. Haha, went shopping with Twinnie on Monday and well I must say it was rather fruitful. I got my prom dress from Warehouse, dark marine (the colour I really wanted) and the price was reasonable I guess. Just that I look overly small in it, but it should be fine. Oh and I bought this necklace which looks like grapes for 49 bucks. Don't ask me why, blame the sales girl for having such persuassive coaxing skills and me for actually falling into her "sure-win lucky draw" trap. By the way, I got a $20 gift card which can be spent in Topshop and Warehouse. Anyone wants to exchange for cash ? :D Oh and I got "a chance to win a shopping trip to London", a chance. Hahah oh woah ! Managed to get my heels too ! From DMK :] Wanted to go do facial at Citispa but they were fully booked so Twinnie and I ended up in the Arcade playing Para Para which was superrrrrrrr FUN ! We kind of looked retarded swinging our arms frantically all over the place, up and down with our face glued to the machine's screen. But I must say, we coordinated our "moves" very well. HAH, we have good hand-eye conordination ! (Audition galxzx are coolxzxz !) Camwhoredddddd in the train, on the way back home. I can't upload the pictures cause Laopa refuses to give me the adaptor, oh well, I'll probably sneak into his room and steal it tmrw morning =x

Tuesday was a school day ! Nothing happening happened, really. Went out with Loulou after school and it was pourng like crazy. We had to squeeze under one red umbrella, which was quite a success :] but the only thing was, our shoes got really really wet (My maid threw them away like this morning). Went to do manipedi and I got my nails done ! I'm trying very hard to maintain them in tip top condition so that the polish will last till monday :] They are blue by the way ! Shiny blue, which goes with my dress :D Oh we're going back on Sunday to get our toes and Lou's nails done. Awwwww, I can't wait !

Wednesday was Three Rocks movie day ! Qiqi and Loulou came over to my house early in the morning without any advance notice, appeared in my bedroom when I was still in lalaland. Great. Haha but its kind of normal :] Caught four movies and Tanyingqi dozed off in every single one. Seriously, the movies aren't boring. Its just that, Yingqi is an owlpig who only sleeps in the morning. First was SKY HIGH (Warren Peace is so CuTeXzxZ and HOtzXz &&&& Danielle Panabaker is gorgeous), next was Bring it On ! (Go Torros, go Torros, go go go Torros !), then it was Stuck On You, which was really sweet and hilarious. Mean Girls (our all time fave) was the last movie we caught HAHAHAHHA classic :D

Oh by the way, speaking of Mean Girls this was what happened today.

Lingjing: If she's from Cambodia, why is she white?
Lou: Oh my God Jing, you can't just ask people why they're white.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Today was a great day spent with great people doing great things like shopping for Demin shorts and bras. Okay I was the only who bought a bra but ! We all bought shorts :D $18 per pair, cheap cheap. I bought liang ge :] Oh and tell you what, wearing shades all day is a pretty enjoyable thing to do ! I'll tell you guys more about it next time.

Teehee, Lou has pretty shades ! :] So after shopping at Bugis, Yingqi went for her 25bucks facial and jinglou went to eat Haato ! Icecream and Waffle are all time love. (Would you like your waffle buttered?) Hahahahahaha. By the way, I make deliscious butter-honeyed waffles, so when you want to eat good waffles, call me along ! :D Met Becks and we went to swing. Yay I love swinging haha. But you get really shag after awhile. Took pictures and relived childhood.

Then went to Lou's house to relax for a bit before going home.

There is school tmrwwwwwww !
Syf picture suck. The choir rocks, but the picture sucks. What is this you tell me, what is this ? D: Horrible.

This. Is such a long entry hahahah.
i can't sleep so I think I'm going to play Audition now.
P.s. I BOUGHT MY 400K HAIR ALR !

The thing about addictions is it never ends well because eventually, whatever was getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom but how do you know that you're there? Because no matter how badly that thing is hurting us, sometimes letting go, hurts even worse.

Fast and Efficient

2007-11-19T10:23:00.000Z

Lingjing got her Prom dress, Lingjing got her Prom dress ! (chants)
And she's super broke now broke now broke now (echoes)

Courage

2007-11-18T14:35:00.000Z

"Stop being frightened. You only see a monster because they want you to see monsters everywhere. They've conditioned you to look for monsters in every shadow, every coat hung on every door. As long as we keep seeing monsters, we'll continue to need protection and that's how other people get to control our lives."

Highway to nowhere

2007-11-17T11:42:00.000Z

Hullo world ! Today is an extremely tiring day compunded with fun & laughter :]

Went to watch choir in the morning at Hwa Chong Institution. You never know how much I detest the wideness of the school. Why the hell do they need so many bloody gates ? AND why must it be so freaking huge. Seriously, I spent 12 bucks on cab fare. AND I'M SUPPOSE TO STAY LIKE NEAR BUKIT TIMAH wth. So anyway, twelve bucks D:< But ohwell, at least I didn't miss Sn choir's performance, which was like the first. Well I won't say that it was fantastic but there was major improvement compared to practice. And they got a gold ! (Fourth position among the 12 choirs). I'm super happy for them, not purely because they got a gold, but because their hard work paid off and the efforts channeled in was no less than other schools. And I think we shouldn't be too critical about this competition thing, I mean every choir has their good and negative points and there must be a reason why some choir made it and some choir didn't. Great job Sn choir ! You guys deserve the gold :) BUT DON'T BE COMPLACENT YO.

So anyway, happy results give way to a happy Lingjing BUT buses which took forever to arrive like 171 and 174 annoy me. Cinch and me waited and waited and waited for the bus to come, and I was late for like half an hour. I'M SORRY CHARM :(

Met Twinnie and headed to Vivo. We met Naiying there ! Yeha. So anywya, walked and walked and walked until our legs almost broke. But we had a great time :D I bought a sweater and loads of candies from Candy Empire. No prom dress today and its not because I'm fussy okay ! Shopping again with Twinnie on Monday ! :]

Die I think I'm overspending D:
In a nutshell, today is a lovely day, spent with lovely people Y

I think I'm growing. Cause the world which once seemed like a wonderful place, is losing its colours.

In her Shoes

2007-11-16T16:56:00.000Z

Maggie Feller:

I carry your heart with me,

I carry it in my heart,

I am never without it,

anywhere I go you go, my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing,

my darling , I fear No fate ,

for you are my fate,

my sweet, I want No world ,

for beautiful you are my world, my true,

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows ,

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud,

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide,

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart ,

I carry it in my heart.

It's out with the old & in with the new

2007-11-16T12:04:00.000Z

Goodbye clouds are grey, hello skies are blue :]

New layouttttttt ! Colour combination is a little queer but HAHAHAHAH i like. Haven't change my layout for like gazilion years so TADAAAA ! New layout :D

I'm listening to Atomic Kittens :] Hee hee I love their songs !

Everything I feel proves there's nothing left in me
Everything I hear takes away the breath in me
How was I supposed to know this was gonna hurt a soul.

Its harder the more that you know

2007-11-16T10:08:00.000Z

I just received three letters. First, is the Cambridge Tutors' acceptance letter (AIR MAIL HAHAH DAMN COOL), second my UOB Internet Banking confirmation letter and lastly, UOB password assurance letter. I FEEL LIKE AN ADULT NOW hahhaha. Srsly.

Anyway school was great today and after school was even better :) Went to collect some documents and had prize presentation. Cheered and clapped until my palms were swelling haha but we had a great time ! So after prize presentation, went for Student Council 2008 investiture which was quite alright i guess. Indeed "Student Council" sounds much more classier than Pmb ;) So after Invest, me, Andrea, Mel, Diana, Wangling and Naiy (6/9 of Wisdom's pmb) went out for lunch ! After much discussion, we ended up at Dintaifeng eating Xiao Long Baos. Hee hee. It was damn funny cause Andrea & I finished the food like super early and we just kept drinking the chinese tea and smiling to ourselves ! Haha so all of us started talking about.... everything, and it was really fun and we were making super a lot of noise. Hahha it sounded like a fish market and I bet the waiters were like extremely amused. Talk for around like an hour then we foot the bill and left :] We should have another pmb outing yo and it has to be a 9/9 ! :D

The upcoming days will be a blast ! Shopping, choir, movies, manicures, class outing etc. Omg I can't wait :] And I'm spending a lot of money, like unknowingly. Oh well -shrugs.

Anyone can be taken at any time in our lives but we always wait until they're gone to say the things that always meant the most.

We don't need the world right now

2007-11-15T12:16:00.000Z

Game plan was good today :D & I had ample fun and accomplishment at TPY's cyber cafe. By the way here's a list of things that I NEED TO GET (DESPERATELY) :

Prom dress (SIGHHHHHHH)
Heels
Leather Jacker :D :D :D
Fresh new supply of Contact Lenses
Shorts & FBTs
Shades
More presentable tops
LASTLY: A TATTOO !

Okay, I'm kidding about the last one. Hahahaha. School tmrw, Grad rehearsal, prize presentation & Invest. Btw, connexio's funny.

MY DAD BOUGHT DOUGHNUT FAC :O

The Antithesis of Good

2007-11-14T12:01:00.000Z

So I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter, let my song sing on forever.
But I'll still love you when I'm gone.

Stardust is absolutely, positively, amazingly SWEET :D

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

Life after Os is good.
I'M LOVIN' IT ;D

& THE STARS WILL SHINE

2007-11-13T13:54:00.000Z

SCHOOL'S OUT
SCREAM & SHOUT ! :O

Hello fat Os, bangbang YOU'RE OUT OF MY LIFE :D
OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR, OVEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR
OVER.

Wearing the Biggest Smile

2007-11-08T12:35:00.000Z

SPLENDID SWEET SIXTEEN LOU :]

Happy Birthday Loulou ! Sorry this post came a little late BUT ITS BECAUSE YOU TOOK FOREVER TO PUT THE PICTURES UP MUAHAHAHA. Anyway, please visit http://spoiledheadlights.blogspot.com and http://paranoidd.blogspot.com for further details about the events that took place on the 6 of November ! :)

AREN'T WE, TRC, THE SWEETEST CLIQUE EVERRRRRRRR ????? -BEAMS

Constant shallowness leads to evil

2007-11-02T04:35:00.000Z

Robert Fulghum once said, "I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, that myth is more potent than history. I believe that dreams are more powerful than acts, that hope always triumphs over experience, that laughter is the only cure for grief and I believe that love is stronger than death."

Today. Is. A hopeful day :) I love hopeful days cause it makes me feel hopeful about everything ESPECIALLY BLOODY BIO :O Hahahha anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY :) If this _ is millions of love, I love you this ____________________________ much ! Y

Okay need to Btb now. Tata :)
(Back to Bio)

Whats holding you together, in fact is tearing you apart

2007-11-01T05:41:00.000Z

Look what I found in my old blog:

It turns out, sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a big mistake in order to figure out how to make things right mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who you really are.

Probably a random quote I got from somewhere, but its scary how true it sounds. Mistakes are inevitable, in a way I guess. Everyone makes mistake it depends the way you manage and learn from these mistakes that make you different from others. Emotions, they are incontrollable and to let them cloud your vision and affect you spiritually is the worse mistake ever. It is like a natural phenomenon akin to a tornado. It is fearsome thing to watch and even scarrier to be a target of it. ~~So maybe if you learn to pick yourself up right now, you won't die crying in bed.~~

Bio at two-thirty, promise :)

& Your're lika a ghost from my past, haunting the every moment of my present life

2007-10-31T13:31:00.000Z

Hello. I'm Lingjing
& I have spastic
friends ! Like...
Lee Wan Ting !
Taadaa ! P.s.
we take way too many pictures :]

Hellooooooooo world ! How's it going ? :]
Hahaha seriously, I wonder how this post is going to look like. Hopefully, its Html right and bug-free. LING JING IS ALIVE ! :] But the worse is yet to be over. Biology and SS next week but fear not ! Cause chicken essence is here. Those who take it must agree with me, chicken essence is da best. Although it taste extremely yucky and revolting (not that bad actually when you heat it before intake :]) it superrrr effective :] Better than constant splash of lambasting cold water on your face, which may also damage your smooth complexion ! SO DRINK CHICKEN ESSENCE. And you won't fall asleep during H.c compo paper :] (STARES AT SAMANTHA KWAN)

Hahah, the papers so far were alright. Expect for Amaths paper one, 30%ofChem paper two, Emaths paper one and HEROES. So thats basically HALF of the papers i took. Splendid. At least the other half should be alright (i hope). Anyway, HANG IN THERE PEOPLE. Two more weeks to FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOM :O Omg I seriously can't wait to just, get away from the books. Btw come to think of it, I just wasted the whole of today doing everything that is far from productive. Hahah SLEPT AND SLEPT AND SLEPT. Sucks, I think I'm becoming a full-time sleeper. Haha. Oh and Leebuyi is such an exciting show I can't wait for the ending ! SQUEALS WITH LOU. Hahaha I was watching Armed Reaction III (again) but the website went bonkus and it stopped me from continuing SO I went sleep. Its fate, i tell you, its fate.

I SHOULD STUDY BIO NOWWWWW. And my gut tells me there is tuition tmrw. Twinnie if you see this, please confirm with me whether there is not hokay ? Lovelove :]

I feel HIGH. Okay, solongandgoodbye. ALL DA BEST MANZX

When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through something that has changed them.

& This moment is all we have

2007-10-25T14:00:00.000+01:00

Chiang Kai Shiek was more concerned about getting rid the Communist than the Japanese as he saw the Communist as a bigger threat. Hence, even though he agreeed on the setting up of the Second United Front, he did not commit all his troops in fighting the Japanese as he planned to reserve energy for later on battles with the Ccp. As such, the Nationalists became unpopular among the peasants as they saw the Nationalist's approach as insincere and unkeen about driving the Japanese out of China. Furthermore, the KMT troops were overstretched and this prevented them from succeeding in any military action.

Betcha didn't know that :P

History is annoying D:

Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars

2007-10-21T12:00:00.000+01:00

There's not a star in heaven that we can't reach :)

I dream my painting & I paint my dream

2007-10-20T13:01:00.001+01:00

I hate China guys. Especially that good-for-nothing scaramouche living in the third floor of my house. Words can't describe how cheap and disgusting he is. So basically, he is ____________ (put the most evilrepulsiveyucky word you can think of here). Urghhhhhhhhhhhhh. I HATE CHINA GUYS.

Amaths will be in two day's time and I still can't find my ruler :X Furthermore, I feel extremely insecure about Amaths cause God knows what kind of question they'll come out this year. And if those kind of undoubtedly not doable questions come out, I swear I'll fly straight to Cambridge and strangle the examiner/s no matter how decrepit he/she is. RAH. (kidding)

Anyway, to my dearest friends out there, ALL THE BEST :] I know you guys can do it cause we're all smart people who are forced to take stupid Olevels.

Okay I should stop here and start doing some Amaths now D:
YOU (who is reading this) should start doing Amaths too !
Okay, whatever haha Sayonara.

And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart, where your hope lives. You'll find your way again.

FBUAEBWFIUABERGK

2007-10-15T15:19:00.000+01:00

Dance of Passion is such a BSBFVIUABLGUARE show. I feel so IAEWBVGIFUEABGKA after watching it. Rah UHWBFOIAHWFIUBWALGIABRE.

Memories inside of a spiral notebook

2007-10-14T13:41:00.000+01:00

"Innocence it don't come easy - in a sense it never will. Accidents mean no one's guilty. Ignorance means someone's killed."

Snip snap. You're out of my life

2007-10-13T13:48:00.000+01:00

Let me tell you what hurts most. Two elastic rubber bands stretching from your last molar to your incisor, one on each inner side of your mouth. OUCHHHHH. I've got to have them on for the whole month (frequently changed of course). No more cheating this time, I only have one more month to go and they'll be off after finishing, polishing and Tadaaa ! I'll miss the fences around my teeth :]

NINE MORE DAYS TO OS. Few more weeks to freedom. Zomg, can't wait can't wait. Why can't Os just fly away ? D: Sigh. Okay I don't really know what to blog. Lets see. I'll update on the events which took place yesterday aka the last day of school :)

Had some praying session in the morning, well it was worth going in a way. I felt and still feel blessed :] After that was collection of our Prelim results. Woot, I love moderation :] 4 points down from actual which made a drastic difference I swear. (duh) Hahah. Then after that had Biolody, which was uh bloody. We revised menstrual cycle you see. ADH, Progesterone & Oestrogen help to sustain/maintain the thickness of the uterus lining (endometrium) by constantly supplying it with blood. Bio is my third love. Chemistry comes first, followed closely behind by Amaths. Hahah. Yeah so after Bio was R-E-C-E-S-S. Favourite part of the day. Actually, favourite part of every school days.

Favourite people :] Last day of school = last recess. Last, but not the end :]

Today, the family talked about how life is going to be in UK. I thought for very long. Long enough for me to realise how fortunate I am to have this opportunity bestowed upon me. How fortunate I am to have such overwhelming family and peers support. How fortuante I am to just be in this very life I'm having now. Enough dwelling on something I can't change, no more crying over spilt milk dude - its time to move on. (eek I just squished a mosqutio !)

Take my hand, and I'll show you. I'll show you how to see the world the way it is; how to lovecryandhate in the simplest ways; how to make this life more than ordinary; how to wear the biggest smile; how to live and let live; how to move on and be who you are. So just take my hand.

I got to move on and be who I am

2007-10-10T13:50:00.001+01:00

This song has been resonating in my head since tuition this afternoon ! Emoshit. High school musical fever is contagious, oh yes it is ! I'm going to (high) school tmrw ! (curtsey curtsey) Hahaha, thank God that Mr. Doctor gave me MCs if not, I'll probably be charged with the ponning-school-for-three-consequetive-days-offence. Teeheehee. Anyway final Prelims results on Friday. Not that I want to complain or anything, BUT our school is really slow. I mean Hello ? Its less than two weeks to bloody Os and we don't even know our actual Prelim results yet. Totally inefficient, and awfully slow. But I hope they'll end up moderating like 10 points down or something (thats what we all are hoping for right right ?) Hahahaha yay can't wait for Os to be over. O-V-E-R. SCHOOL'S OUT SCREAM & SHOUT :O Okay irregardless. I'm off to watch my Dance of Passion nowwwwwwwwwww oh and did I mention ? My new Idol is Ada Choi hahahha I think she's cool ! Alrighty, bye world ! All for one and one for all :D

Vulnerability is not a crime, it is a challenge for you to overcome, not a shield for you to hide behind. Just because you're vulnerable doesn't give you any rights to be different from others, others who are much more stronger inside because they've went through a hundred times more than what you think was once hell for you. It takes a strong person to cry - how ironical. This used to be my favourite quote. Its true, one has to muster an adequate amount of courage in order to show their emotions, because letting down your strongfront and exposing your vulnerability to the world is a admirable thing to do. But you're different, because you don't even have a strongfront to start with. And you know why ? Thats because you don't even bother to care.
-011007

Is this absolutely Fabulous ?

2007-10-06T15:42:00.000+01:00

High School Musical 2 is such a happy show :] God I feel super musicalish after the show. It was like a total relief from all the stress in the world especially when you'd spent the whole entire day doing Chem and slugging textbooks. Haheho. Lucas Grabeel is hawt :D and I think VAH is really pretty. But Sharpay's still the best manxZxz !

I want fabulous,
That is my simple request,
All things fabulous,
Bigger and better and best,
I need something inspiring to help me get along,
I need a little fabulous is that so wrong?

New revelation

2007-10-03T11:30:00.001+01:00

Family - it can make you and break you.

Searching for something more

2007-09-29T07:07:00.000+01:00

My study scehdule currently screams : BIO CHAPTER ONE, CHEM CHAPTER ONE, CHINA, SS & AMATHS PAPER. Shoulders sagging, morale abased. Uh whatever. Let see how productive I've been so far : Social studies Bukiettimahdknwwhatschool's paper [semicomplete]. I left part D blank cause apprantly, it's too stupid for my intellectual brain. Right. Oh and I did Section A of Cedargirls' Chem paper. Hahaha great, I wonder if this is enough for the upcoming Os. NO THEY AREN'T ENOUGH. LEE LING JING YOU HAVE TO WORK A MILLION TIMES HARDER THAN THIS IF YOU WANT TO GET HALF OF YOUR PRELIMS MARKS ! Bleah, okay now my innerself is scowling at me. So if I don't hurry go pick up that Chemtxtbk, I think I'll probably burst and split open. Yuck. Shitttt, can't wait for this to be O-V-E-R.

Anyway dinner tonight will be massive. You'll get what I mean.

For now, so long & goodbye.

Mendacious is your middle name

2007-09-28T15:25:00.000+01:00

Time to rise to expectations.

This is what the future holds

2007-09-27T11:02:00.000+01:00

Chemistry - A1
Biology - A1
Amaths - A1
Combined Humanities - A1
Emaths - A2
English / Chinese - B3

Total : NINE POINTS
(Minus 2 for higher chinese and 2 for CCA rec)
= FIVE POINTS.

Yeah. This is what the future will hold.

Prelim sucked. But its alright to suck now. Olevels will be better :] It isn't a prediction, its a resolution.

The moonlady

2007-09-25T15:53:00.000+01:00

Today is the best Lantern festival yet. Kind of celebrated with the family (Dad's side); all the catching up was really good. And the ambrosial food was just right for the taste buds :] Probably won't get to celebrate again next year cause apparently, I'll be miles away in farfarawayland and I can only get mooncakes in the faux Chinatown. Haha, oh well, at least we'll still be sharing the same side of the moon :] There is plenty to blog about but I really need to catch some sleep nowwwwwww. Will blog about doughnuts and mooncakes tmrw then. Night world.

Say goodnight and walk away from the past.
You don't need it anymore.

Stars will cry their blackest tears tonight

2007-09-24T16:43:00.000+01:00

IMAGESTATION IS CLOSING DOWN :O Gasped. Okay I think I'm quite slow but I'm glad that they offer transfer pictures service to Shutterfly but it takes wayyyyyyyyyy too long to upload. Sigh so Albums will still be up at http://www.imagestation.com/members/Edelweiss_ but after 1st Feb 2008, it'll be on http://edelweisss.shutterfly.com/ Hahahahha Yeah. Not much of a diff actually but I prefer IS to Shutterfly cause the layout is way nicer and its user friendly :] Oh btw, I think Kodak and Nikon are having a hard time staying alive in the current industry cause the rapid production of film-free, convenient digital cameras are kind of taking over. And they are probably gonna lose their standings soon. SighXzX

We will be getting back out Prelims results by this week. ALL OF THEM. I hope my heart is strong enough to take the consequetive blows. Alright, maybe not "blows" cause I can already foretell the atrocious results of mine. Appalling >:(

Standing on the fringes of life

2007-09-22T16:06:00.000+01:00

I still can't believe Michelle Branch turned country. Heehee but ohwell, I'm cool with The Wreckers :]

Sometimes, the people you meet changes your life forever. And in many ways, it's for the better :)

Something that will never change - the past

2007-09-22T13:05:00.000+01:00

I need new earphones. I accidentally dropped mine into the jacuzzi D:

Anyone Can Cook

2007-09-21T15:11:00.000+01:00

Ratatouille with Cinch, Bim and Twinnie was goooooooood :D It was an awesome day and we're all mirthful kids. Anyway not many pictures taken but since I'm on cloud nine and I need something to keep me busy with, I've uploaded the sixteen pictures we took today (with my phone) HHAHAHAHAHAA. Here are they :　http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2087388250 Heeheehee.

I need to go watch telly nowwwwwwwwwwwww. Will blog later, ciao :]

Concrete Angel

2007-09-19T18:03:00.000+01:00

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Saddest video yet.

It's time to bridge the distance

2007-09-18T15:32:00.000+01:00

Bridge GalzXZzxZZXzzzXX Y

If there's no one beside you,

when your soul embarks,

then I'll follow you into the dark.

This time, I turned to the Bible in hopes of finding an answer

2007-09-08T12:29:00.000+01:00

Someone save me please.

School reopens the day after tomorrow. I just hate the sound of that. Can't help but sense the forebodingness cause I'm totally unprepared for prelims, or rather for anything. Why can't this be over right now ? Omggggggggggggggg. Ugh guess what, I'm sick of feeling helpless. I'm just going to go all in, do my utmost best so even if I fail, I'll have no regrets or whatsoever. Better than curling into a corner and cry over spilled milk yeah ? Okay thats it, I'm going to study Chem now. Bye :]

We are what we are, and thats not enough. It's not enough to give you what you want; not enough to assure you success; not enough to protect people you love from hurt; not enough to make yourself feel worth; not enough to command authority; not enough to be strong; not enough to overcome things, to overcome anything; not enough to live up to expectations; not enough to do anything - if you don't try.

Paper Walls

2007-09-06T07:49:00.000+01:00

The album title Paper Walls comes from the song of the same name, which begins "Let's burn a hole so we can climb out of these paper walls in this empty house." It's a reference to the barriers that built up between the band members over the years and everyone's desire to tear down the obstacles and heal old scars.

"If you really love each other as much as we do, you want to knock those walls down and get back to the place where you enjoy being with each other and making music together," says Key. "The song is basically saying let’s get back out there and remember why this is important to us, why we love being on stage and why we love making records." - Amazon Music on Yellowcard's new album Paper Walls

Let's burn a hole so we can climb out
Of these paper walls and this empty house
Don't listen too close
The words are like guns
With bullets that fly and kill what you've won

Let's burn a hole so we can climb out
Of these paper walls and this empty house
Where the only thing that's real is
Visions we have of ten years ago
Of stars in the sky and us down below
With streets and East Coast lines,
We kept this scene alive

Here I am, still hold on to this dream we had
Won't let go of it
Hear me now, you will never be alone

Don't listen too close
The words are like guns
With bullets that fly and kill what you've won
Some love to hate and some tell you lies

So let's make a toast and kiss them goodbye
We'll kiss them all goodbye

Here I am, still hold on to this dream we had
Won't let go of it
Hear me now, you will never be alone
Here I stand, won't turn back again
Won't leave you, I know how hard it's been
Hear me now, you will never be alone

Let's take what hurts and write it all down
On these paper walls and this empty house
And when our ink runs out,
We'll burn into the ground

Here I am, still hold on to this dream we had
Won't let go of it
Hear me now, you will never be alone
Here I stand, won't turn back again
Won't leave you, I know how hard it's been
Hear me now, you will never be alone

:]

Pride and Prejudice

2007-09-03T20:28:00.000+01:00

Mr. Darcy (to Elizabeth): You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.